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noun \j-mann\
1: Queercore Whore
2: a · Ladyboy Artist
b · Example; "Im not an artist/Im a fucking work of art."-MM
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Feb. 8th, 2012 @ 05:04 pm Evans Blue<3
Current Mood: pensivepensive
I'm guarded, I'm fragile, but if anyone could ever save me now, you can
And you can...
Are you strong enough? am I enough?
Are you strong enough to say you love me?

You better crawl on your knees
The next time you say that you love me
Can't you see that this is life and life is killing me
You better see how evil you can be
When you see my evil smile
It's the one that you'll remember when I am not so kind
Can't you see that this is death and death is saving me
I say burn all your bridges while you still have control of the flame
I know it's hard but you...
Tell me, over and over and over and over and over again
It never was time for us, it never was time to let me in
Show me, over and over and over and over and over again
It never was time for us, it never was time to let me in

We love our tragedies.
We're both broken in our own little ways
We're broken, but we fit together just right
You know I saw the black inside your eyes
I saw they were eclipsed by mine and they looked just right.
I love your analogies.
We're both crazy in our own little ways
We talk about the future and our past lives.
I know I loved you then.
I know I'd love you now.
I know I'll love you then.
I know I love you now.
But you can't have everything you want when you want it.
I will be everything you want, when you want it.
Wait for me. Trust for me.
Fall for me. Even when you don't know you're falling for me.
Will you fall for it? If it should, it'll come around again.
But don't wait for me. And don't trust in me. Don't fall me.
Even when you know you're falling for me.
When our hearts meet, will we make it then.
Will we even notice that they are eclipsed?

She wears a butterfly on her wrist
But she might as well cut it's head off
She's holding out for weapons to kill the ghost inside
Or at least kill the thought she has of killing her mind
she says "I love you" with her hands, she says "I hate you" with her eyes
Theres a pretty girl somewhere, with a pretty name
But I could never let you know how much this means
I swear we'll end this war, cause we both know
It wasn't worth fighting for

There's a lit cigarette:in the hand of my new angel
she's blowing smoke like halos, and now everybody wants her
but I shouldn't even bother
because you made me so complete dear, but you left me so alone here
hang a noose for my new sinner somewhere everyone can see it
won't you beg me and then tell me how to love you
like anybody else would
I know you're risking failure (risking failure)
go run for cover (for how long)
you better start to love her so much you're moving on and on
and you left me so in love here, you left with so much hate dear
was I creating only chaos-this world lives just fine without us:won't you?
I know you're risking failure, (risking failure) but I'd hope you set your levels (for how long)
so you can run for cover
you better start to love her now are we this pathetic? you made me finally see it
(will it change your life when I change my mind, will it change your mind when I change my life)
go run for cover
you better fucking love her so much you're moving on
I'm so pathetic, you made me finally see it
got what you want? I'm gone
for how long? for how long? for how long will it change your life?

would I spend forever here and not be satisfied?
and I would be the one
to hold you down
kiss you so hard
I'll take your breath away
and after, I'd wipe away the tears
just close your eyes dear
Through this world I've stumbled
so many times betrayed
trying to find an honest word to find
the truth enslaved
oh you speak to me in riddles
and you speak to me in rhymes
my body aches to breathe your breath
your words keep me alive
nothing stands between us here
and I won't be denied

They won't want you for who you are
So you should step outside your skin
Something tells me, that we were meant to be
But how can that be?
You run on evil, I run on fumes and stale air,
when she came out , she brought her anger, she left her sympathy
Behind the walls she built for me
So we start spinning
I want you for who you are
So you can stay inside your skin
Ohhhh something tells me love isn't enough
But how can that be?
You're not so evil, I'm not so good
Crazy or mean, so we start spinning
She's so dramatic shes says I'm leaving, is that a promise or a threat?
I am the voice you'll never get
I am the one
I am the promise and the threat.

Big cities' action of my big city girl
Think she builds her own heaven
Cause she finds it's a lonesome world

Hold your hands into the sky
Pray for mercy, instead of time
You are the massacre, the masochist, the tease
And you're captivating , standing in front of me
Is the reason, I'm still wondering why everyone we loved has broke away
So be my massacre, be my masochist, be my tease
Cause you captivate me when you stand in front of me

can you feel my trigger hand, moving further down your back
when you hide, hide inside that body
but just remember that when I touch you
the more you shake, the more you give away
cold, but I'm still here, blind, 'cause I'm so blind, say never
we're far from comfortable this time
cold, now we're so cold, mine, and you're not mine, say never
we're far from obvious this time
so fall into my eyes and fall into my lies
but don't you forget
the more you turn away, the more I want you to stay
you're so endearing, you're so beautiful,
well I don't look like they do, and I don't love like they do
but I don't hate like they do
am I ever on your mind?
COLD, you broke me from the very first night
I'd love you 'til the day that I die
I'm far too comfortable this time
COLD, I loved you from the very first night
you broke me 'til the day that I die
I'm far too obvious this time

You lived a time of lies until you told me everything
I hope we make amends, but you don't
Life taught you how to fly and then you flew away from me
You left me haunted, star the ending image of the one
I saw you pray for change and then you walked all over me
You wanted what you could not have and now you are alone
Make the voices tell me who you are, and who I am to be
Are you alone wherever you are tonight?
I'm alone when you're right here
But I'm still in you somehow
I never left at all
Now I'm still in you too low
So my voice is all you know
Cos they're still in you too low
All the voices you don't know
And they're still in you too low
All the choices that you chose
Leave you nothing left to hold
When you're nothing it's a good time to remind you of one thing
The pursuit begins when this portrayal of life, ends
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